About Me & My Journey

Hi everyone! Well, I must admit that I am filled with anticipation as I wonder where this journey will take me.

To say that I’ve tried to lose weight before is an understatement. There have been times that I’ve tried to do it alone, and other times when I’ve had hundreds of people rooting me on. I have made weight loss attempts dozens of times, and yet I have always found myself eventually reverting back to my old patterns and comforts.

Here’s a little bit of my story:

First, I want to say that I have a great family, and consider myself extremely blessed for the life God has given me. But despite a lot of the joy I have experienced in life, I will admit that my journey has been sprinkled with quite a bit of pain. Starting at a young age, I began to face difficult and painful situations, and I turned to food for comfort and solace. As the years continued and many things in my life came and went, food was the one constant that I knew of that would never let me down.

In the past 8 months or so, I have experienced a great amount of healing in my life as I have sought to come to terms with the pains of the past. Therapy has been an incredible blessing as I have worked through many of my issues and healed from many of the things that have gripped me for years. Yet, I have continued to hold onto the one thing that I have had for so long: my addiction to food and binge eating.

On September 11, 2011, I sat in my apartment with a horrible caffeine headache (from diet coke) and a bloated, hurting stomach, thinking about my future and wondering exactly what I was doing and when the cycle with food was going to stop. I felt a lot of sadness and anger, knowing that I had dug such a deep hole for myself, and I wondered if there was any way I could ever possibly get out.

Well, I believe there is a way out for me. I believe that even now, at such a heavy weight, I can experience healing and wholeness. I believe I can still experience the joy and the reality of the health God has for me. This might very well be a battle that I will fight for the rest of my life, but I am up to the challenge. I am either going to gain weight or lose weight. And I have decided that I am no longer going to put more weight on my body; I’m going to lose it. And I will do whatever I need to do in order to be healthy.

So I would love for you to join me as I go through this journey. All of my fears, my triumphs, my joys and my pains will be shared here as I embark to lose 180 pounds. I am ashamed to see what I have done to my body, but I would be even more ashamed if I didn’t do something about it.

I can no longer hold onto the past or answer for my past decisions or mistakes. I am only in control of how I act now. And today, I choose to make a change and to fight for the health that I want and need. I am taking back my life and my health, and I would love for you to join me.

Taylore